It's "that time of the month."
I have no words for how much I hate menstruation. It was worth putting up with, sort of, when I still wanted a baby but I HAD the fucking baby, I am done with the uterus and I hate, hate, hate, hate, hate menstruating. I don't even mind the blood or needing pads/tampons, or any of that. The cramps are annoying but livable.
No, it's the FUCKING mood swings that get me. There's this part of my body that is symptomatic of everything I dislike about my body, and on top of that it forces me to involuntarily feel things that I have no good reason to feel. I hate it. It's a non-consensual thing that happens to me, that I can't prevent, that I have to suffer through, and it forces me to do things I don't want to do and I just loathe everything about it.
And of course there's nothing I can do about it because I can't afford to have an elective surgery that my insurance would never cover just because I don't like feeling cranky for a few days a month.
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