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Understanding the world
Yesterday's post has me thinking more on the ways in which people *think* differently. The ways in which I specifically think differently, and the ways in which I understand my own self.

It's not only that I've had a different life experience from most people. I haven't really. Not wildly so.

But for whatever reason I responded to that life experience differently.

I think all girls growing up experienced sexism, for example. Experienced being told "No, you can't, that's for boys." Boys do this, girls do that, get in your box, stay in your box. Everyone has run into that wall at one point or another in some way, I think.

The difference is that most girls respond with some form of "no, girls can do that too" but me, while I agree that girls *can* do that too, I responded with "I'd rather be a boy, then."

Same experience, different responses. Why?

Well... There's legit science about this, actually. There are *physical* differences in the brains of trans people. It's very close to literally true that a trans man has a man's brain in a woman's body. So that's probably got a great deal to do with it. For whatever reason, my brain is more masculine.

I suspect that simple brain chemistry is a lot of what drives our differences. How pedestrian, right? Well, yes and no.

Did you know that science *does* know how bumblebees fly? It's known for a long time. The bit about "science says bumblebees shouldn't fly" is firstly something of a misunderstanding of the original truth, and secondly these days just plain wrong as science has advanced.

Some people don't like that. Some people like their "ooooooooo, magic!" conception of the world.

I posit that there's plenty of magic in the way the world actually works. I mean honestly, complicated sets of molecules being shuffled around by processes spelled out in billions of letters of DNA resulting in my *thinking* things is awfully magical. Simple chemistry becomes *me*! Wow!

I want to understand more of the world. I want to understand myself, too. I spend a lot of time inside my own head, thinking about me (about us, the others who share this space and are part of me) and trying to sort out why we are the way we are.

It's one of the differences between myself and other people that baffles me the most. How other people can go through their lives without thinking about their own thinking. Without wanting to know why they do the things they do. Without examining their own experiences and motivations. How can you ignore what's in your own head?

Plenty of people do, though. To me, they're the *real* weirdos.

This entry was originally posted at https://bladespark.dreamwidth.org/1515627.html.