March 29th, 2019


WTF, AO3???????

I found out yesterday that AO3 has no method of blocking people. And no plans of ever creating such. Apparently it is just too hard.

I'm sorry, but that is a foundational, not-even-ground-floor-its-basement-level tool for any community with commenting of any kind. When people can harass and abuse you and your only recourse is to get always-overworked top-level site administrators to remove their accounts... That's just ridiculous!

It also, to be honest, makes me feel completely muzzled. I know that sounds paradoxical, but if I had the ability to block people, I'd feel safe in engaging with possible-trolls, asking why they think what they said, and having a conversation when I have the spoons to do so, maybe even accomplishing something. But if I have no way to cut off those who don't take clapping back well, then it's not safe to reward a possible troll with even the tiniest scrap of response, the only safe thing to do is delete the comment and hope they move on rather than come back and try to flood me. (I have been targeted by trolls before, even with the ability to block them on the various platforms they were following me through, it was seriously traumatic, having a group of people systematically pursuing you, but I've always known that at least any one of them only gets one try per platform, before I can cut them out. Now I guess I can't take comfort in that, because if a group went after me like that today, they'd find my AO3, and could drown me in vile bullshit before an admin could get around to banning them.)


What the fuck, AO3, seriously. I have never used a social site that didn't have a block feature, even fucking IRC, which was invented in the fucking 80s has a block feature.

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Writing privilege?

I'm not sure what else to call it, exactly. How easy the mechanics and general base-level production of writing is for me. Reading is the same way. When I was a teenager I finished two novels nearly every day for a couple of years. I read like the blazes and I write that way too. NaNoWriMo doesn't feel like a meaningful challenge, either I'll be unable to focus on one project at all, or I'll manage to keep focus and do it in half the time. (I once wrote 70k in eight days, three of which were spent camping and away from any means of typing. That was...interesting. I've done "NaNo in a week" a couple of times as well.)

It's very great! Honestly, great! It's really great! I am glad I can write like that, it's amazing!

It just comes with two microscopic downsides. One is that much of what I write doesn't really get read right away. A lot of writers collect writer friends, or non-writer friends, who read their stuff as they write it. They share their stories with beta readers, they get feedback, they talk about "the" thing they write. I can't do that, because there is no "the" thing, there's the 20-50 things (not kidding, it just depends on how you count) I have in progress, and the 2-4k per typical writing day word output that's just too much to ask anybody to read. I'm pretty sure most of my patrons don't read the "bonus" stuff I share with them either. I just keep posting it anyway because... I dunno. They're paying me money, I should be giving them something for it.

The other downside is that I feel I can't complain about "bad" weeks. I'm in a few writing groups, and sometimes I chime in on the check in posts, but this week I started to type out that I only managed to write the trans furry thing and a short gift fanfic, and 10k total words, pretty much all on two days, none of them on what I really "should" be working on, felt so disappointing, and last week was like that too, and I anticipate next week being even worse for reasons, (gonna be blogging about that for sure, ugh) and it feels so bad.

But really? I'm going to bitch about "only" writing 10k worth of words in a week? In a forum where people are celebrating word counts in the hundreds? No. That feels kinda sick to do. No way.

So I guess I bitch to you all instead, half of whom are quite certainly going "I wish I could have only written 10k words this week!" since I know many people reading here are writers of some kind or another.

But it just still feels bad. I have things I need to be doing! I have shit I owe my patrons and I have commissions I owe people and I have all these ideas that should be taking off in beautiful fire and instead are just flopping about in limp, sad piles in my ideas document.

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